This is a slight tangent on this thread’s topic (so admin, feel free to do what you need to do) and admittedly a little egocentric on my part, but I don’t really know where else I could post my thoughts on the situation.
This recent development hits me hard in a number of ways. Not just being from the United States with family and other people I love and care about there, but also as a person with former students and acquaintances in Israel. The actions and policies of government of most any country in the world mustn’t automatically be considered a direct reflection of many of the country’s citizens and what they believe in or want… but in a situation like this, it’s not the first thing taken into consideration.
The fact is my anxiety has gone from bad to worse recently, to the point that it’s debilitating, and waking up to this latest news has hit me in the gut in the worst of ways. This is not good any way you slice it. Like, really, really bad. My fears are currently impeding me from focusing and functioning, especially when I think about my two kids.
I feel powerless from being able to do anything productive. I also already feel a sense of guilt that I am physically far removed from the conflict here in Argentina while so many others are or will be direly vulnerable. I am wondering how to get through one day at a time when I can barely get through an hour or two without the compulsion to doomscrolling or let my imagination run away with me.
Am I the only one feeling this way? Is there anything I should be taking into consideration? I don’t want to come off as Chicken Little, but I am just trying to cling to some shred of hope that doomsday is not how it’s going to end.
Please be kind in your responses, I’m really not okay.