Hi Ticktock, suicide is a terrible thing for those who are left behind. I have known several people whose family members ended their own lives and it seems that for ever after they seek an answer. I hope all reading this will take heed and no matter how hopeless life can seem at a given time, think of how horrible you will make it for those who love you if you do that. And usually there wll be another member of the famly who will follow. I don't know why and I have theories but I'll spare you.
I'm not Roman Catholic and I'm not native Argentine, but I know there is a God and He does judge our lives. But I believe that He takes into account the mental state of the person who did the act and I believe that you can trust Him. And yes there is life after death. That's a big subject to touch on.
I do want to add there is a lot of occult in my farmily background (psychics, spiritists, etc.) all the way back I don't know how far. My own grandmother was a fortune teller before she rejected the occult and and chose faith in God. You cannot do both. God absolutely forbids our messing with the occult, seers, psychics, etc. He calls it spiritual adultery. My grandmother warned me never to go to anyone like that or to a seance, etc. The story of her leaving that "religion" (and it is a religion though most don't realize it) is interesting to say the least. She told me that there are two powers, God and the demonic. She said there is a lot of faking in fortune telling, psychics, etc, but if it is real it is demonic and that you can end up leaving with a "familiar spirit." There may be a reason you have not followed through. I believe that God tries to protect us--but we can override his protection.
I could write so much more here but this is enough. I know occultism is getting stronger in the world as more people are being led in every way possible by the PTB to reject God, and I'm not going to argue with anyone who wants to defend it. To each his own. I choose the God of creation, not his opposition. Occultism seems to follow family lines (to me it seems that way as I watch occult families) and not everyone in my family went the way of myself and my grandmother. I can tell you their lives have not gone well. God has answers for you. Best you look to Him. In closing I will add that your post touches my heart. I know it's hard, and sometimes life has such hard things for us to cope with and it is always worse when it involves someone we love. I've had my share too, though not that one, thankfully. But we do learn from them and there is a purpose for it all.
I'm not Roman Catholic and I'm not native Argentine, but I know there is a God and He does judge our lives. But I believe that He takes into account the mental state of the person who did the act and I believe that you can trust Him. And yes there is life after death. That's a big subject to touch on.
I do want to add there is a lot of occult in my farmily background (psychics, spiritists, etc.) all the way back I don't know how far. My own grandmother was a fortune teller before she rejected the occult and and chose faith in God. You cannot do both. God absolutely forbids our messing with the occult, seers, psychics, etc. He calls it spiritual adultery. My grandmother warned me never to go to anyone like that or to a seance, etc. The story of her leaving that "religion" (and it is a religion though most don't realize it) is interesting to say the least. She told me that there are two powers, God and the demonic. She said there is a lot of faking in fortune telling, psychics, etc, but if it is real it is demonic and that you can end up leaving with a "familiar spirit." There may be a reason you have not followed through. I believe that God tries to protect us--but we can override his protection.
I could write so much more here but this is enough. I know occultism is getting stronger in the world as more people are being led in every way possible by the PTB to reject God, and I'm not going to argue with anyone who wants to defend it. To each his own. I choose the God of creation, not his opposition. Occultism seems to follow family lines (to me it seems that way as I watch occult families) and not everyone in my family went the way of myself and my grandmother. I can tell you their lives have not gone well. God has answers for you. Best you look to Him. In closing I will add that your post touches my heart. I know it's hard, and sometimes life has such hard things for us to cope with and it is always worse when it involves someone we love. I've had my share too, though not that one, thankfully. But we do learn from them and there is a purpose for it all.