Oh please, Ailujjj, climb off that horse and read what you wrote...
...at least consider that for some people, getting a first-hand look at what so many people live is something that builds and enables their compassion for others. Sometimes it's important to step out of the bubble - even if on a train - and see what reality is for so many. Makes it a lot easier to put your problems in perspective, appreciate all that you have, and develop your ability view the world with a different perspective. Maybe even inspire you to take action in some form.
...and then read what DSC wrote:
I'm not sure why, but I've always had this morbid fascination.
I guess it's the same kind of thing that makes one look when you drive by the scene of an accident..
I don't live in a bubble and I've certainly seen my fair share of poverty, but it's not because I seek it out
. Poverty surrounds us; it's not hard to look for. (How about that woman slouched at the bottom of the subte stairs holding an infant and begging for coins, DSC? Was that not "seedy" enough for you or do you mostly take taxis?)
I never let myself forget that I belong to a group of hyper elite world citizens (despite the fact that I don't even make that much money by Western standards). And while I'm sitting pretty I do what I can to donate to "good causes," like a lot of us do, and I have a pretty solid history of volunteering since I need to make myself feel even better about my lucky lot, but who the hell am I - or any of us - to come down off my/our throne and gawk at the masses? Talk about adding insult to injury.
It's disturbing to read words like "compassion" in conjunction with this thread, since DCS sounds like he's just trying to get his rocks off. He said it himself: it's a "morbid fascination" and he is seeking, literally, "grit and seediness." Yep, sounds like he's just oozing with the desire to make himself a more compassionate and inspired individual.
DSC, I realize you did not use the word "compassion" or make any reference to wanting to make youself a better person in your original post. However, I hope if asked you'd take the high (or at least honest) road and admit that you belong to the same elitist club as I do and that what you really want is a special kind of gruesome entertainment that the majority of the world's population knows as reality.
I'll judge you a whole lot less if you call it what it is.